lenora

2009-11-18T08:09:00.000-08:00

yes i am backkkkkkkk! :D wonder anyone misses me? looking for a job lazily. :D i prefer looking it for myself now.
tired from the long walk and brain cracking mission to get a prom dress. i choose informal one. who say i can't wear something so informal since the stupid team is be yourself :D
ha! :D
should i change the blog skin? :D bbq was fun :D yan ting got tricked, and i think i lost 16. D: short of cash now.

2009-11-10T05:48:00.001-08:00

tell me what am i use to now, not fair. this is not fair at all. my stress level is getting higher and higher day by day.it is worse then before o's. surprisingly weird.

2009-11-01T03:20:00.001-08:00

there's no one here to help me. the other side of my brain is getting on my nerves. i feel like i am in an emotional rollar costal.i hate it. i hate it i really fucking hate it.

two more weeks to the end of o's i can't wait.
SO SHALL WE HAVE CLASS BBQ? OR OTHERS.

2009-10-25T19:31:00.000-07:00

today will be the first paper for o's. english. i thought i am not stress out or anything and my day will go smoothly. however i caught a cold. just my luck. my throat hurts and i think i wouldn't talk much. my head hurts too. i wanted to practise on maths but ended up lying on the bed after breakfast. two spoonful of cough mixture and a tablet of panado. i hope i get well soon enough :D so goood luck everybody and all the best~! AI ZAI~!

2009-10-25T02:54:00.000-07:00

i really hope they do not take things lightly. i am really sick of everything i think of. i need a therapist straight to clear my thoughts. i hope the stupid old fart dies too. :"D

2009-10-23T07:45:00.000-07:00

don't underestimate the perplex feelings of a lady. even as a same gender, i can't understand what a she wanted the most out of me. however i can't entirely fulfilled her wish. i am so sorry that i can't be lady like or favour adorable stuff like hello kitty. but there was once i liking to them when i was younger. i am surprise that i even tried forcing my self to love them but failed. so what's the point trying if it hurts me deeper. have fun and get you hands dirty rather then sitting in a stone like position sipping tasteless and stinky tea. (okay maybe tea aren't that disgusting). or wearing full loaded of ribbons and laces. but i can survive but a small percentage of them with me.
i wonder what she wants me to be? go into med school or studying law? so sorry i can't do it either. i have a goal, it's to go in arts. there i no way i am going to study something i basically feel nothing for.
i better stop for now.

2009-10-22T08:06:00.000-07:00

super duper tired. my eye lids are dropping D: and i am very very full.
i hate practical. super difficult for idiots like me. i should have work harder. but too bad lar, poor memory skills. :D
just have tuition, i laugh till my sides hurt. :D all thanks so sunny and mr ke.

2009-10-20T00:12:00.001-07:00

you are DEAF!

2009-10-20T00:08:00.001-07:00

fuck those stupid old woman. i did nothing wrong.

2009-10-19T06:35:00.000-07:00

stingy touchy hot boiled old woman. angry over something ridiculous. i am a human. and i got the FUCKING RIGHTS TO SAY I DON'T WANT TO LISTEN you have i have too.

2009-10-18T22:27:00.000-07:00

old woman sucks when they are so touchy.

2009-10-18T04:07:00.000-07:00

love my day cause i am not at home the whole but at tution. tution is much better then at home. i get to spent my time away from the computer. the bloody temptation of mine. neer one day i will not touch the com. never one day i will not go facebook. guess i spent my time meaningfully. does lipstick contain lead if it last longer? :D haha! go back ask teacher :D wait i hate pop ups they keep coming. freak. need to colour my art now.

2009-10-17T05:24:00.000-07:00

which art school is better lasalle sia or nafa? :D

2009-10-16T09:27:00.000-07:00

really, face the reality. everything is not perfect. so fuck the world out of you stinky face, stop whinning and crying the shit out of your eyes and move on. you will never know what you will find you little son of a bitch. anyway i hate you.

2009-10-14T08:12:00.000-07:00

i am sick of having pop up's when i click on every link. i hate pop ups

2009-10-13T09:22:00.000-07:00

someday you will find me again and regret losing me in the first place.

2009-10-12T00:30:00.000-07:00

i am happy i am happy i am happy, please don't mind me. going to be crazyyyyyy! :D always loving me day. how would i know why i am so high up today? :D
happy sweet 16 birthday maine! :D

2009-10-11T06:40:00.000-07:00

love my day, high on doing to much maths and science. too much too fast. to me is alot, to you is little :D haha!

2009-10-10T20:42:00.000-07:00

i hate my previous skin. i just took interest for a moment only. bet ya' hate it too :D too cute to fit my style :D HA! :D

2009-10-08T07:38:00.000-07:00

will anybody hate me if i don't go to school tomorrow? i know it's our last day. sorry D:

2009-10-07T06:19:00.000-07:00

i will never look back, i hated it when my brain works on it's own so i never leave my ear buds off cause to stop my brain to think of these stupid things. i always remember the bad but forgotten the good. i suck most at this. hated remembering what is not suppose to dig out.
i can almost see what are they thinking. my six sense probably. i can almost see what are they feeling upon a person. i observed that's one reason i stare for no reason at other people.
sometimes it's better for a person with a wider heart then a narrow one that thinks the wrong stuff huh? :D i learnt, i forgive but never forgets.

2009-10-06T09:11:00.000-07:00

block my every sense. i am dead tired. not one day i am not tired. i can work all they all to 12 hours no stop in school or tuition if i can concentrate. but i will be drop dead tired when i saw my bed. ha! :D
may be if nothing of this will happen i think it will be alright. i don't miss your presence. in fact i have kinda forgotten you. so sorry. haha! i don't ever think you are more then a mere company. i think you would think the same. ;D

2009-10-05T08:46:00.000-07:00

lots of care bitch i won't help you. why should i? be responsible of yourself. stupid enough of my to say yes. stupid enough for me to help.i ain't your mum.
what a day... less then half of the class came. i should skip too. i bet they think no school already.dead tired. when will survive one day without saying i am beat? i don't think so if i am posting in the morning otherwise, i just woke up still in sleep mode.i am prepared to plunk all my sub for o's. *touchwood* ha! :D

2009-10-04T07:58:00.001-07:00

how might ares of tropical rainforest be conserved to reduces exploitation? ....
clueless. it's not that i hate geog or never study, it's i do not know how to put it in words. i can give up but i won't want to dissapoint my parents taking a f9 for humanities, neither i want to see miss siew expected face. :D i have to study hared for geog. hope i can go back to consult her. ha!

2009-10-03T21:09:00.000-07:00

play with zoe and wai hian yesterday at zoe's house. celebrating mid autum festival. if i am not wrong it is spelled like that. anyway we played with sparkels. i was tired ,so, sorry for not being high. didn't have my coffee. sucks. i hate coffee, but the caffine rocks on getting my energy of 101%.

it's not i am not willing to sms you and chatter over the details where you never come. but a second thought. why should i? you have never appeared since you got satisfied over somethings. face it they are just one part of it. you are enjoying to fast. please don't tell me that you will do it at home. do you even get it? guilty consious.

2009-10-01T00:34:00.001-07:00

something sent my heart racing and long for it guess :D

2009-09-28T08:26:00.000-07:00

today ws fun, i never knew i and eyra had almost the same thinking, or rather interes. talking to her is easy :D
i wonder if anyone would read my empty blog, expect for pei yi with a glance. :D i wonder who else would come here? :D
dead tired after 6 hours of tution D: i would never try that again, so now i am having abit of my social life :D blogging...

2009-09-21T20:18:00.000-07:00

in school now blogging. so long so far, new gossips now drama new haters :D conflicts always happen. i hate fakers. hate liars hate pretenders. drama drama drama so funnnnnnnnnn ~

2009-09-21T05:42:00.001-07:00

my day was like lemon and honey. :D
sugar and spice everything is nice :D

2009-09-21T05:42:00.000-07:00

my day was like lemon and honey. :D

2009-09-18T08:38:00.001-07:00

i am dying for an answer. i am dying for the truth. i am dying for everything. i am going to give up of attention seeking idiotness. i cross my heart.

2009-09-18T04:19:00.000-07:00

i am at loss. who should i turst. i don't want to think about it but whenever i look at them i occurs to me that they may be lying. lies fakers. which is which?

2009-09-17T08:27:00.000-07:00

what if everybody is lying to me? even my closest friends? what if only i am the only one not knowing the truth? it is not fair, people are not telling me anything, treating me like a fool. i really want to know everything. although i am not important but i still have the rights to know the truth. i am not bother that whether you hated me or not. i am not bother for you to misunderstand me, cause i know when i explain it is useless. i am really cluless to everything, even what you are thinking. thought it is writtten all in your face. i hate it when people give me faces and still lying to me. so who should i belive in? you or you? i hate it when i am at a lost. only i can shout out with not a decent replie back. kill me just kill me now.

2009-09-17T06:17:00.000-07:00

i am confusing myself, who should i belive in? she or everyone. lies or truth? i am naive. i trusted every single of of them. will i get betrayed or i am the one making them to betray me. am i the one at blame. confuss confuss. haha! :D what am i to do? act normal and pretend like i known nothing. or concious about their little secreat?

2009-09-16T07:29:00.000-07:00

it seems like i have post a million times today (in reality it is only three), mixed emotions, feeling to 'betrayal'? to a wonderful lost of whether to belive one again. the lies she told or maybe she has mixed emotions like me. should i belive her. no them, i cannot see through them, oh how i wish i could :D haha. if i only knew what they are thinking, by then we will be a happy class. no i should not know what they are thinking, it should be what they are feeling.
can i EVEN call it lies? seems so fake, everything seems so fake.

2009-09-16T03:22:00.000-07:00

maybe some things can't be seen when i really want to see. maybe somethings are way too complicated for my pea size brain to understand, maybe we are innocent as the way we look. i am thinking too much just now am i? headache...

2009-09-16T02:42:00.000-07:00

i don't want to know the rest. i really don't like fakers. i really don't want to know the rest of the things they talk about. i am not bother, since i have known it or felt it ages ago. people don't appear the way they look or i think, it kinda disappoints me cause i really like them. so... i am like in a corner looking at them and think woo! okay that was a huge blow to me and it was pretty unbelievable. still they don't do hates :D ha ha i am open minded and consistently thinking about the good things of them instead of dislike them. i can easily search for a good one. but won't i say bad about them, i belive i can like them and let them do what they think or say of me. i don't mind cause i can't make to whole world to like me, but still it is still ubelivable... :D shocked shocked! :D people should stop being so... you know what and be open minded. :D but not like me. haha
you fucking made me. i have no choice

2009-09-14T07:13:00.000-07:00

question me, do you like your class? yes! of course! who doesn't? But i don't get what they are thinking sometimes. i feel so... so, i don't know, at lost? i can't figure out they are happy or sad. i can't figure out whether are we united or not. i can't even figure out why there are such things as classroom politics (quote by alex):D. what else? erm... what about i am constantly feeling hatrated within each groups. why aren't we together like other classes? ... but we are still a ahppy class :D we got all the almost same grades! :D lame... haha but I LOVE 4E5! WHO DON'T? :D IF OU DON'T, GO HELL!

feel so fucked up, thanks alot. i have been negleated. yeah cause i can't go out much often right? never mind. i am nothing just thin air. you me throw me away. how many times has this happened? loads. what do i feel? numb, no pain just dissapointed. dissapointed that you took me for granted. it is not the affection you show me. but the little things you do makes me hurt. so what affection you showed me? lots of affection but feels fake. not insulting you . but if i got no affection but the little things you remembered thank you. action speaks louder then words. i rather no affection but simple things like remebering my exsistance will do. not everytime you notice i got something wrong then ask me.thanks thanks very much. thanks you for using me in the first place, not notcing my action, thanks alot my firends i am so fuck up.IGNORE ME, IGNORE MY POST, I AM JUST VENDING ANGER DOWN HERE. YOU CAN ONLY LOOK THE FIRST PART. FORGET THE REST.

2009-09-09T05:08:00.001-07:00

i want it all to end, i wish i am not so helpful again. it sucks being me. everyone is just using me in the first place. this is so not fair.

2009-08-29T07:50:00.000-07:00

i am not going to die, i am not going to die, i am not going to die, i am not going to die, i am not going to die. it is self reflection, sorry to those that i have been mean too. i love you guys.

2009-08-28T21:25:00.000-07:00

HIGH On Caffeine, i am serious, i am high on caffeine and i hated it. it makes me study double the rate i usual, which it is the good point of drinking coffee and tea in one shot for breakfast. BUT it sucks cause i don't usually drink coffee, so i get cold sweat, faster heartbeat, a little dizzyness and most of all i do not know what i am doing, it feels like something is controling my brain. i hate coffee. ask me why am i drinking coffee? i was greedy, i wanted to try out the coffee beans that my dad got. two teaspoons of chrushed beans, (i was thinking of getting more cause i am new to stuff like this, i usually drink instant ones) with two packets of sugar. to my upmost horror, it tasted sour and not sweet. i don't mind the bitterness, but i do mind the sourness. Yucky. so i finised it off with tea to wash off the sourness. and a ate only half a plate of bee hon. i am surprise that i only ate half of it. i usually eat more then that. haha.joking. I HATE COFFEE ut i don't mind starbucks!:D haha
everything is good for now my current life, i may be a little moody caue of somethings i have not well figure out. i do have problems in my life. so sorry for being not normal then usual.
i hate the pimple on my nose too, so painful.D:
bye bye!

2009-08-20T06:22:00.000-07:00

did a quiz. my weakness is heart. i shall not tell you what they said.:D nothing much more to say so i will just go then byebye

2009-08-18T02:22:00.000-07:00

you are damn fucking sexy, my god haha! GD is so sexy, can i just eat him? Super high, watch G.I Joe today. Fuck this cause me to get high! haha. Feeling so floaty today right after the movie, so floaty so high so excited. GD is officially sexy after his hideous hair is gone! :D But i am not gaga over him. haha just want to eat him upppp

2009-08-06T04:18:00.000-07:00

i need to shower, cause i am smelly, but i will post before i head for the shower. today was... exciting? three teachers did not came i think. was it two or three? never mind, we got three periods free. but i fucking waste my time listening to the group of people sitting beside me talk, it was very very entertaining. still i did not do anything. miss *** cherries/nipples are nice. she wore a non trasparent shirt (at last) but we are still able to see her cherries. ha! pi says that she wore no bra on purpose to attract boyZ attention. ming feng was hinting brather(brother) to guys. sebs wei lai lao po. janna was saying something about her, i can't remember much. but i hope someone will tell her that she needs to buy proper clothings.:D i have successfully collected money for the tomorrows trip food. i hope that the money will be able to feed the whole class. anyway, today is dull. nothing happen, i wonder when is vivien coming back to school. i am excited for tomorrows outing, i hope it won't rain. and i am upset that i will not be able to join the rest afterwards. i have to study. i sam so sorry that i can't go. i got quiet at recess, don't know what got over me, but i just feel that i need to keep quiet. i finally laugh when i play with xiu ling, funny!:D haha then went for art with rou xuan, miss neo is funny. her hahaha is so evil. :D i just love her.

shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut uip shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up

hope zhen ming is okay, i miss zann!:D

2009-08-01T08:29:00.000-07:00

went to maths sup today. the rest of the details, read pei yi's blog. i am lazy to type. i eat mac for breakfast and lunch, i was so full that i fall asleep on the sofa for two hours. when i woke up. i found myself wet, cause i sweat not pee. we suppose to head for some place to watch the fireworks i refuse cause i am dead tired. in the end we went for jurong point with an ami in buying quuen size bedsheet. but i and my mum ended up window shopping. i was tempted to buy a shirt but i did not go out often so i dismiss the idea. anyway i ate sambal fish with rice. it is a huge plate. i did not feel hungry at all but still i have to eat a proper meal, i skip the veggies with mayo and ate the ones with thousand island sause. then we headed down for ice-cream.:D
i am fucking full now and tired, i will probably sleep like a pig again.

i was thinking for the past few days, i came to a conclusion. every single one of us will probably say bad of another behind her or some are the facts, bitching. but that does not conclude that is equal to dislike. you are just merely stating the fact or just do not like the certaine parts of that person. but you can't deny that you shared a bond with a person so you will still feel for him or her though you dislike certain parts of him or her. even if you dislike the perosn, can't stand him or her, you won't bring yourseldf to hate him or her. even if you hated the person, how long you can stand hating him or her. if you are seeing the person who is in school the whole day, can you even stand it? you won't hate that person for long, you won't even insult the person for long. if you think that the person you are insulting is suffering, i guess the one suffering is you. you are probably winding up ideas to insult him or her everyday. then i will find you pitiful.

2009-07-19T07:44:00.000-07:00

i am unable to understand you. even we have been throught thick and thin. you are avoiding me all along.
*sign another day of not dong anything, another day of not doing homework, end up with a zero work done. i really have to buck up

2009-07-16T09:08:00.001-07:00

i suddenly felt something. i am so out of reach. i don't go out, i don't take photos, i felt i missed everything, loney loney loney. it felt as if i been cast aside. kinda sad that people show me photos together that they had fun outside when i can't go out. it is kinda sad that i am pitying myself now, i will probably cry and wet my beb with tears tonight, ha. it is kinda sad that everybody looks for other people but not me, i probably the only one feeling this, i guess. it's really kinda sad that some people only find me when they need me. it's really kinda sad that my blog is always about nothing, that is probably the reason that i am not exciting. may be it is really my fault that i am so far away from them, i tried but failed.
may be i should stop caring for them once in a while and think i should be a little selfish, can i be a little selfish? or may be i am selfiash all along.

2009-07-16T09:03:00.000-07:00

i got sick of locking my blog anyway no one bothers, i wrote the boring-est stuff, the lamest things so no one will even care to read. why lock, stupiddddddd.

2009-06-20T07:04:00.001-07:00

i got killed.

cause you went off so sudden months ago and appear in front of me again so sudden,so fast today. you are an idiot you know. i felt nothing for you yet i still long to see you.

2009-06-19T06:07:00.000-07:00

unbreakable, unbendable yet fragile. it really hurts.
urg, saw i video of a lady popping a huge huge pimple at the ear, really really huge.
breakdown, not knowing where are you who are you what are you, you are losing at sight yet you still stay focus. what are you?

2009-06-14T22:33:00.000-07:00

chill rice only taste the best :D

2009-06-10T19:03:00.000-07:00

temptation

come to think of it, i only took pictures alone, i rarely took it with my friends. may be i like it alone, i should get more with my friends, but i find it weird.:D ha! count down to 17 my test date:D can't wait till o's over, i hate the three times a week tution.

my photos always depent on the days lightning, i only edit the contrast cause i like black and white together.

2009-06-08T01:02:00.000-07:00

ah~ i am pratically fine, talking to pei yi without her repiling is so much better then talking alone, you know how i love to babble round my friends like i am talking to myself?got back my phone so i am enjoying every moment of it :D

the last one was pretty weird :D

2009-06-07T06:59:00.000-07:00

i don't see the point anymore, i don't see the point of helping others where they won't help me back. i can't really see the point that why must i always be the one calling people where they take me for granted all the time. i don't see the point at all to concern you where you don't to me at all. after all i am what you use when you have nobody, after all you don't see the much use of me cause i can't do what you think friends do. so why bother ask me to be close to you? it will make me more hurt. so why i must bother to get close to you when i know that you will end up reusing me again and again. i am envious, envious you always end up finding the person you once having trouble with, and ignore me who once solve that problem for you. you can blame it on me for being so sensitive but the truth states out here, YOU DON'T NEED ME AT ALL. I AM JUST YOUR SOLVER HUH? MIGHT AS WELL FUCK OFF RIGHT? why need me in the first place?
i am just nothing am i?

2009-06-04T08:24:00.000-07:00

feeling like a thousand fingers pointing at me cause i offened the religious thingy. i am deeply sorry for my mistakes. anyway just came back from the kampong glam trip scary fun and mostly dead tired

2009-05-31T05:01:00.000-07:00

0.0'' why is there so many people fell in love with the Korean f4? i hope i pass my Chinese and get a c6 :D yes i am looking down at myself but, i really really have no confidenceeeeee -_-
arg help. my stupidity is increasing. give me a pill?
:D

stupidity shown D:

2009-05-31T01:26:00.001-07:00

AH!!!!!!!!! F.T island is coming to singapoooooooooore!:D i want to go, yeah if only i am rich and i have a 100 dollars with me right now:D haha!
erm i think none of my friends knwo them, bu ti shall post this up anyway in case anybody would like to knooooow:D haha
Date: 27th June 2009
Location: Dragonfly @ St James Powerstation (no age limit)
Time: 3PM
Duration: 60 mins
Ticket Prices: SGD 100 (USD 69)
look at the hundered D: haha!

2009-05-29T09:10:00.000-07:00

all because of pei yi that's why i am still typing gin the late night to pass my boredom. download download download D:

2009-05-27T09:28:00.000-07:00

i am happy, still i felt a need to run far far away from here and from everything.

oh i want to watch monster v.s aliens, blood the last vampire(watch the anime already quite good), harry potter and teh half blooded prince.
wait i think i can't even step out of the house for entertaiment, so wish for what?

2009-05-24T05:44:00.000-07:00

saw maine's blog, she put up g-dragon for big bang, hope she does not fall head over heels for him like xin ying! haha! fans can be very very scary sometimes :D should have seen g-dragon's latest hair, you will *love* it. lets just say he went over bored in experimenting fashion this time, hope he changes one soon enoughhhhh. sorry for discriminating him

still i thought that dae sung is cuter :D that is taegoon he is NOT in big bang, just put this up cause not many people know him, love his dance moves. a professional dancer plus a singer how cool can that beeeeeee:D still finding superstar ablum songs, all i found is just the mv....

anyway i got juliett for SHINee:D my it is nice, wait i came to type about my day, why am i typing this? never mind, since i type and upload pictures already i might as well continue on.

:D downloading Avaholic ablum noooooooooooow bye

2009-05-19T07:07:00.000-07:00

my lips is shut tight, my face blackens, i can't see anything that satisfies me. what the hell is worng with me? yes i am not in a good mood it will probably last till i have my holidays. i guess i am sick of everything currently i am having, pressure, pressure, pressure. from on lookers, from all the stuff i have to do. i cannot tear it out, i just can't.

2009-05-18T06:23:00.000-07:00

how envious i am of her, she has best of both worlds, i have none.

2009-05-18T02:54:00.001-07:00

i think of you all the time, all the time.

2009-05-15T08:35:00.000-07:00

my aunt came over, we barely talk, i guess time changes everything. the power of time weaken the strong bond of two people, it really hurts to think and feel the way it is.

2009-05-15T01:32:00.000-07:00

sickning assholes, bimbos and baskets.

2009-05-13T07:44:00.000-07:00

thanks for people's concern, i am studying now pei yi:D still nothing gets into the brain of mine, i might as well die.

2009-05-10T03:50:00.000-07:00

i miss you, alot, still my head and heart hurts like hell

2009-05-10T02:18:00.000-07:00

thanks for the concern li yar. love you girlfriend.
please give me the dounuts in pei yi's blog, they look so nice 0.0''
ha!

2009-05-07T23:31:00.000-07:00

Obsession

2009-05-06T23:52:00.000-07:00

feverish

random

act cute.

2009-05-05T07:06:00.001-07:00

Gone forever

2009-04-28T01:10:00.000-07:00

:D sugar rushhhhhhhhhhhhhh
hi fuckers!

2009-04-25T08:58:00.000-07:00

我应该笑我自己傻呢？还是笑我自己笨呢？我似乎好像失去了我自己，我是真的在笑呢，还是假的呢？我不能失控我的情趣，笑似乎成了我的习惯。哭？我不会在被人面前哭了，我发誓我再也不会这样了。那时是最后一次了，我不会再哭了。

2009-04-23T22:54:00.001-07:00

okay i take back my words for scolding them, they are good people, they do not hurt others physically but abit on the mental sides. :D i won't say sorry, but all i can do is just take my words back:D see, how soft hearted am i.

the maggie mee is delicious :S

2009-04-23T22:48:00.000-07:00

not angry at them not angry at them. i am not angry haha! just upset that they say what i am not. she's right, i am not to cry over such matters. but crying do comfort me. haha i am not angry at them but just feel a distance between them. so much for bonding haha. today is fun. we play games, no one is angry, angry people makes me stress. haha yes i am that sensitive. people who are angry makes me stress. i can't see people angry, unless i can some how read what they are thinking:D haha my maggie mee is cooked:D i am all ready to eat so bye bye~

2009-04-23T02:35:00.000-07:00

the more scarier i think the more scarier i am. i did not know that my imagination can be my source of movement

2009-04-23T02:03:00.000-07:00

Someone posted a positive comment about me, but preferred to remain anonymous. He was afraid of being accused of boot licking.I have a way to overcome this fear.I like to find positive things to say about other people. I am just being decent and encouraging. I am not boot licking.We need to promote a climate of positiveness. We have to find positive things to say about other people. We have to create an optimistic climate.I encourage other people to think positive, and be positive.

i got that some where from the net. may be people just like using me then accused me of being one boot licker. hooray, push all the blame to me after you use me just like the rest cause you know i won't get angry. my,oh,my i do get scary , but i choose not to show it. to get the peace in the class i don't see the need to flare up just because some people accused me. neither i don't see the need to find fault in other people saying me. why should i, waste of my time. still i am being decent and encouraging, i don't have a reason not to help other in small favours. i am just being me, i did not do what i don't like to do. yeah and it's true. by the way this thing taught me that being too good sucks cause other people will see you as a boot licker, right? well, the people who say it seriously about me being boot licker obviously do not know me well.
by the way i make it clear that vivien treated me way better than you guys think, i donnot lick her butt. so thanks for your fucking comments :D
but something occured to me that there are friends who are way nicer to me are not accused of a boot licker, i guess i am plain easy to use huh? so do i get the money i deserved or may be i don't get the money because i come IN FREE, whoo. i DO NOT KNOW THAT MY SMALL FAVOURS ARE FREE! SO WHAT NOW? YOU DOG? fuck.
i feel instantly better.

sometime i just wish i can get a mental illness

2009-04-22T01:58:00.000-07:00

had school today, boring tired but not sleepy, later i have to head down to the pool to do CPR lessons. aw.. great. i dare not miss one lesson cause later bob will "kill" me. my shoulders still hurt, i did not take any pictures recently, cause i am super busy. Mr. low told me to call my mum cause i did not attend the physic remediation on this Monday, i thought it was chemistry, so i skip, who know it was physic, hooray. mum sort of nag at me, but i just laugh it away. she told me not to let this happened again, i swear i won't, i think. tired.

she told me not to worry.
i ask what.
everything, she said, everything you have been worrying for.
how?
she smiled, not giving me an answer, took my hand and lead me on,that instance i felt my mind was clearer than before, like a fog or mist vanish. my heart set free, i left like i am floating, everything and everyone was forgotten, all i saw was nothing. nothing at all.

2009-04-16T05:37:00.000-07:00

fuck all the way you want and get lost, don't come back to me. yes i am in moodless condition. feel the fucking love of your friends if they need you help then they throw you away, yes enjoy the taste of being use up and throw away like nothing, satisfying huh? if you would like to tryin it go ahead, feel free to try and use me, ofcourse i would argree, i agree almost anything would i? accompany you? yes. help me do this and that? yes. lend me this and that? yes. i agree almost anything, fuck you. i can almost regect you and ask you to go hell. or i could just keep the stupid clam relationship we have here do we? in the end you left me alone to fend for myself, so much for helping you when you left me behind. behind behind behind, again and again.

each set of pictures are shoot in the different days, they are not perfect and that's what i like about them:D there is a mini story while i shoot the last set of pictures with a feather like substance:D shall not tell you

2009-04-14T07:21:00.000-07:00

you imperfection causes me and the others in pain, embarrassment and shitless surprises thank you but no thanks.
random i think, okay i am be a bit slow like 24hours slow but still i feel the guilt for not wishing Rande a major happy birthday wish
so here it goes...
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY RANDE :D
at last no more guilt, really sorry rande:D hope you forgive me.
any way school as usual, i got sort of torture in the front every english lesson, this time is the worst, she "fought" with me to look at my sentence, lame but funny. maths yes the again again, it sort of slip out of my mouth, shit, and that cause the clas to roar with laughter. okay not roar , but still it was pretty embarrassing.
i do not really notice LG phones but this tiem i can't wait to get my hands on the LG lollipop phone, cute and stylish:D i can spent $400 for it and i don't mind:D
shall upload my pictures tomorrow, my mum is being a bother by looking over my head out of the blue again and again. (again and again and again)

2009-04-13T08:06:00.000-07:00

if that's the way you think will help you to solve yours life matters think again stupid. emoing is not going to help, neither can i , i am just one listening ear that's all, i am not you niether him nor her. too bad but at least i can help you to solve if you need help.

i went back against my words, i help them , stupid me, soft hearted me, what a joker

2009-04-12T03:47:00.001-07:00

yes, today is a cold, long and loney day for me. but the best present i have is that my bill is less than 25 dollars:D whoo! yeah yeah , i still feel so fuck up. guess what i plan to get my revenge on the people who sort of use me by not helping them any more! yes, it sounded to stupid that you will laughout with tears and snort running down your face, but still that is the best i can do.
i really hope i pass my chem test, which is tomorrow on monday. chating with kris online now, her curser in her blog is really fun. bu ti hate it in my blog:D haha!
i find this the most beautiful thing just the moment i look out of the window.

any way i just pop two pimples, it's fun:D and disgusting for you i think

2009-04-10T09:48:00.001-07:00

i feel so fuck

2009-04-09T08:07:00.000-07:00

i am really scared shitless, i do not know why. i get fucking gratitude from people. thanks a lot for knowing that WHEN YOU NEED HELP I AM THERE BUT WHEN YOU NOTICE THAT I HELPED YOU SOLVE YOUR PROBLEM YOU ARE RUNNING AWAY FROM SOMEWHERE ELSE LEAVING ME ALONE thanks just thanks a lot. i should not have help you in the first place if knowing that you are just going to find better friends then me because I AM JUST ONE OF YOUR STEPPING STONES TOWARDS FINDING ANOTHER GREATER FRIEND. i am in a really bad mood and thanks to the long weekend i get to cool down abit so that i won't flare up like an idiot in school.
i will lose a friend and soon i will be alnoe again and again repeatedly just because i am just another stepping stone for everyone right huh. when you need help go find other people not me any more cause I WON'T HELP YOU AGAIN! i won't be cheated by you, i won't be another stone for you to use and kick away. thanks to you, i am the only one feeling that i am going to lose a freind again. fuck to you hellers

2009-04-08T07:32:00.000-07:00

tell me why do i have to be so brutally blunt when it comes to nervous, over sensitive and probably craziness over powering me. why do i have to be so straight forward but not meaning it in the way time to other people. i am so sorry. i do not have the mood to care what is going on around me, happening on me. i feel lifeless. everything seems too fast forward for me to catch up.i really need a break from everyone. now i am having a headache, i don't feel like caring my homework but i am force to do it. why do things have to turn out this way. it seems as if i have know something unacceptable in my heart, as if i have not yet accept that i have been disliking her, probably jealous over her. what's the use, she has her own imperfection that i have better then her and she has more perfect compared to mine. what's the fuss about? i really need to get a grip, i must make myself spin with the world along and catch up.

i am counting to the days on how long can i survive the wonderful world of disastrous, i am really breaking into million pieces

2009-04-04T23:26:00.000-07:00

"let alone everything" who has any idea what that means? haha wai hian sms me and made me feel so discourageeeee...
LOL! anyway, i don't hate the person from the previous post, i was in a moment of loss, anger, fed up. i want to help that person but i am just waiting for her to open up, if she wantsss..:D i hope. ahaha may be i will go and meet wai hian later.
hope that vivien cured her back achhhheeee;D

2009-04-03T05:59:00.000-07:00

stop being a frequent attitude changer all the time, 24 hours. Stop being a princess, this is the real world that is your fake world with full of protection. It's not that no one understands you, you just don't understand yourself, talk about opposite. Stop thinking that you have the worst love life and all your boyfriends are the bad guys and you are the victims. Stop lying to guys that you liked someone for one and a half years, you still have the cheek to say after having a couple of boyfriends within the period of time. Stop saying that you have the worst parents, i have stricter ones and i still love them. Stop saying that people "ignore" you, i am being "ignored" all the time and i still don't mind cause I THINK MUCH MORE POSITIVELY THAN YOU, that i know all my friends love me no matter what. Stop shouting at them for no reasons just because they "ignore" you . Stop embarrassing her in the public, you are not the only one who can't hear properly when it comes to concentrating. Stop saying you have pains all over your body when someone gently touch you, my shoulders hurt when you hit it today, you hit harder than i. I did not complain. Stop say all the thick-skin. Read my words i don't care, neither you aren't that pretty. Stop being a wonderful act. Stop being to insensitive. Iused to be insensitive but i am now a better person than you and i can prove to you that other people will say i am better than you in character. Stop lying to us all the time, i had a hard time guessing which one is true or not. Stop correcting me like you know everything, even if you did, i don't care. Stop saying things that i did not say before. Stop saying sorry if you are not willing to change at all. Stop saying that you will change but you did not. Stop all the things you will change or not but it did not happen, it disappointed me. Stop saying all the nonsensical stuff when you did not even made the effort.
truly i am disappointed by your words action and everything, you know i love you as a friend but somethings don't change when you don't make the effort. this is for your own good.

2009-04-02T07:04:00.000-07:00

i feel that i am lacking of inspirations for art, i feel that i could not concentrate anything at all, i can't think of anything to write for my compo, i feel empty. something is seriously wrong with me. i need help, wait, i don't need help i need a doctor to cure my mental illness. my hands are shaking like mad exactly like the full whole hour at geog period. i probably won't help Vivi to massage for a few days cause my hands are in a weak state. my hands shake like i am high, my heartbeat beats faster than normal humans, i get cold and hot repeatedly again and again without anything affecting me. what's wrong with me!
as i promised i relink Vivi.:D

2009-03-26T04:09:00.000-07:00

when things don't go the way you planned, the way you dream you called that is life. without these life will be boring, don't blame it on anyone, these types of things happen. instead of blamming, crying, filling your heart with sorrow, choose to love it instead. you will forget about them eventually.

2009-03-25T09:04:00.001-07:00

i don't feel well, i feel sick to my guts. this feeling kept hitting me back again and again. the nauseousness that you will never imagine. but i probably won't bother it. nobody cares about this anyway thus why should i.
close my eyes, breath in, cout to three, tell me it is all okay.

2009-03-25T09:01:00.000-07:00

let me wander through my fanstasty, don't ever bother me. all i want to is just lie down and sleep with out waking up again so i can stay in my world forever.

2009-03-22T03:04:00.000-07:00

went out with xiu ling on Thursday to shop for presents unfortunately we can't find any.D: the salvation army was worse than i thought. although i knew that i won't find much in the second hand shop but i did not expect that it would be that worse! haha but overall i get to peek at what is inside:D then we went to woodlands library to search for books:D ... that's all. although it seems to be a short journey but we took quite a long time... :D THANKS XIU LING FOR LETTING ME DRAG YOU ALL THE WAY OUT THERE AND SORRY FOR NOT ACCOMPANYING YOU TO DO WANT YOU WANT TO DO. SO SORRY!
yeah that is basically all what i have done for the past week. the whole week i was stuck at home with nothing and still refuse to do my work.. :D i have yet complete all my march holiday homework.
i hope pei yi can faster heal back her throat. :D

2009-03-18T02:36:00.000-07:00

i am sweating like mad, i am stuck at home with no entertainment doing all those crazy homework like a mad dog yet still i can't complete it. although it may look small to you but to me, i do not even understand a single question. stupid me, if i am only smarter. in addition, i am not allowed to go out and play due to failing three subjects. so i am kinda grounded but tomorrow i will force my way out no matter what. :D whahaha ...
i am short of money yet i think i still can afford two mini present, i hope:D

2009-03-15T19:20:00.000-07:00

我们最爱的舞后女王回来了！:D

:D jolin tsai is backkkkkkkkkkkkk! yah! she rocks always:D

2009-03-13T05:05:00.000-07:00

i found this band - A Static Lullaby :D love them

nothing much to say, enjoy

2009-03-12T08:33:00.000-07:00

nothing much happened today. review back, not many teacher came today due to sec three camp, tomorrow is worse then today, no p.e due to some stuff, no maths last two period is class room cleaning , meaning NO CHEM~! ya hoo! ha ha i hate chemistry. after that wait for the relief teacher to come in to take over the class as miss tan has been sent to some MOE thingy. i went to the toilet, saw liting there, then suddenly it occur to me that kris wai hian weiting they all may went bowling without me! lucky they did wait but was a little fed up. i got irritated of waiting for a teacher to come in to take out my class thus i ran out with my bag and meet kris and wai hian. ha! that was the worse offence i did. -.-;; stupid. no actually i pointed the finger to taman then miss zhang saw it. that was the worst offence. haha. pointing middle fingers are fun! okay back to the bowling thing. we went some crappy bowling area. it got stoped cause there is osme on going competition thus we went CSC. meet sin sian, caleb and the russell ( i really hope i spelled every body's name correctly). i got a socre of 50 or 60+ not the highest or the lowest cause i don't have to treat drinks:D goody! i own ryan bowling money as i did not bring enough for today. this sucks, i did not want to play but he paid for all of us without telling.-.-'' never mind. i am getting another tummy ache again! this sucks!

2009-03-11T06:41:00.000-07:00

I LIKE KICK ASS
tired, i had a bad case of stomach ache today thus resulting that i did not report to cca. i started sounding like i am working on my social studies. i do not know the reasons therefore i concluded that i am upset and went nuts over social studies. yes, i can imagine anybody who read this will either immediately fall asleep or just thinking i am plain stupid. if that is not roughly what i thought that you are not thinking, you are consider yourself a supreme high powerful person. i am just talking lame shit.
the fact is that i am trying to make people divert out of this blog, or rather "ghost". ha ha lame.
okay i found a classmate who is not that strong as i think. i really sincerely hope that she will do fairly well for her life as she just experience a break up. you can consider this as a just plain say break then break de break up. but the truth is that it will hurt more than just fight over something then break. the quieter the break is the harsh it is. some of us do not know that quieter break ups are worse then fighting then break. so please help her even though that she may look that happy. the truth that she is hurting inside whether do i know it or not.
next, i may not hang out with them more than i use too i guess if she is there. i do not know why.
i have to go,my parent are asking me to leave the computer.
i wonder how long can i last since i am breaking into pieces?

2009-03-07T04:27:00.000-08:00

went swimming with pei yi and li xia yesterday as there were no English's supp, it was fun. we played alot, made a lot of noise, saw four dogs;D they are extremely cute to the core:D we went into the pool filled with warm water. i almost asleep cause it was too comfortable. after that we went to the mist room, i almost suffocate to death. then we went to eat KFC for dinner, i almost puke. ... i really can't stand eating too much KFC for dinner. then we went home.
(i was told to elaborate this, i tried my best):D
today i had tution from 11am to 4p.m, althought it was long but it worth my $35 well;D
then i went swimming, i collied into alot of people today, i am seriously lacking my skills. this sucks. then i ate hand-made young tao foo , ( i think that is what it call.) for dinner made by my mum:D nothing much so i will go tag other people's blog

2009-02-27T03:08:00.000-08:00

ss, chinese and english papers today. i am positive that i am going to fail ss. after school went bowling, not really that fun but it was okay cause every was tired. went home and use come till now. i am lazy to write. not in the mood. it is okay that i don't write anyway. i still can't find the time to replie other people tags. never mind they will forget it anyway.
i am breaking slowly. bit by bit. in small pieces. i close my eyes. i wonder how long am i going to last.

2009-02-23T06:07:00.000-08:00

shall not blog this few days cause i will be or rather i am quite busy.:D let it rock